Elder
Paisos on Spiritual Study
— Geronda,
what books should be read by those who are beginning their spiritual search?
— First, they
should read the New Testament to learn the meaning of Christ, to be shaken up a
little; later they can read the Old Testament. Do you know how hard it is when
they have read nothing and yet they come to ask for help? It is like an
elementary school child going to a university professor and saying, ”Help me.”
What can the professor tell him? ”One plus one equals two”? Others, again, are
not spiritually restless; they come and say, ”Father, I have no problems and I
am just fine; I only dropped by to see you.” Man can never say that he has no
problems, no concerns; he will have something. The struggle for the spiritual
life never ends. Or some people come and tell me, ”Tell us spiritual things.”
It is as if they went to the grocery store and said, ”Give us some groceries.”
The grocer is at a loss and needs to know what they need. They need to say, ”I
want so much sugar, so much rice, and so on, but they only say, ‘Give us
groceries.' ”It is like going to the pharmacy and saying, ”Give us medicines,”
without first saying what their illness is, or whether or not they went to the
doctor, and what he advised them to do. Go figure! You see, whoever is
seriously concerned over his spiritual condition knows, more or less, what he
is lacking, and once he seeks it, he benefits.
As a novice,
when I read something I liked, I wrote it down so as not to forget it, and I
would try to apply it to my life. I didn't readjust to pass my time pleasantly.
I had a spiritual restlessness and, when I could not understand something, I
would ask for an explanation. I read relatively little, but I checked myself a
great deal on what I read. ”What point am I at? What must I do?” I would sit
myself down and go through such a self-examination. I did not allow what I read
to pass me by untaxed.
Today with so
much reading people end up like tape recorders, filling up their cassettes with
superfluous matters. According to Abba Isaac, however, Wisdom not based on
righteous activity is a deposit of disgrace. [1] You see, many who are interested
in sports read sports magazines and newspapers while they are sitting. They may
be like the fatted calf, but they still marvel at the athletes. ”Oh he is
marvellous! He is great! Bravo!” But they don't work up any sweat, and they
don't lose any pounds. They read and read about athletic events, and then they
go and lie down; they gain nothing. They are satisfied with the pleasure of
reading. Some worldly people read newspapers, others romantic literature or an
adventure novel, still others watch a football game at the stadium and pass
their time. The same thing is done by some people who read spiritual books.
They may spend the whole night reading spiritual books with great intensity and
be content. They take a spiritual book, sit comfortably, and begin reading.
”Oh, I profited from that,” they say. It would be better to say, ”I enjoyed
myself, I spent my time pleasantly.” But this is not profit.
We profit
when we understand what we read, when we censure ourselves and discipline
ourselves by applying it: ”What does this mean? Where do I stand in relation to
this spiritual truth? What must I do now?” After all, the more we learn, the
more responsibility we have to live up to what we have learned. I am not saying
that we should not read so that we can plead ignorance and therefore be free of
responsibility, for this is a cunning deception; I am saying that we should not
read merely to pass our time pleasantly. The bad thing is that if someone reads
a lot and has a strong memory, he may remember many things and may even talk a
lot about what he has read, and thus deceive himself into thinking that he also
personally observes the many things he reads. So he has created an illusion
toward himself and others. So don't be comforted by the thought that you read a
lot. Instead, turn your attention to applying what you have read. Much reading
alone will only educate you encyclopaedically. Isn't that what they call it?
— Yes,
Geronda.
— The goal,
however, is to be transformed in a God-centred manner. I am not aiming to be a
university professor where I would need to know many things. But if I ever need
something from this worldly knowledge, I can easily learn it once I have
acquired the God-centred knowledge. Do you see what I mean?
— When one
has a distraction, is it beneficial to concentrate through study?
— Yes, one
should read a little, something very demanding, in order to warm the soul. This
keeps distractions and concerns under the lid, and the mind is transposed into
a divine realm. Otherwise, the mind is diverted by whatever task is
preoccupying it.
— Geronda,
when someone is tired or upset, he usually wants to read something light and
easy, a short story or a novel, perhaps, or something like that.
— Is there no
spiritual book that is appropriate for such times? The purpose is not to forget
one's worry, but to be redeemed. Such light reading does not redeem. Novels,
newspapers and television have no value in developing a spiritual life. Quite
often even some religious periodicals are damaging to Christians, because they
stir a foolish zealousness that leads to confusion. Take care. Do not read
unnecessary things during your free time. Some reading matter is completely
hollow, like a water-pumpkin; it is like looking in a haystack to find a kernel
of wheat. Some people say, ”Yes, but they relax me.” But how can they be
relaxing, my good man, if they make you dizzy and cause your eyes to ache? It
is better to rest by sleeping. You can learn much about a person's spiritual
state from what he reads. One who is very worldly will probably be reading
indecent magazines. One who is less worldly will read less indecent magazines
and newspapers. One who is religious will read religious periodicals, or
contemporary religious books or patristic texts, and so on.
— Geronda,
which spiritual books are the most helpful?
— The various
patristic texts, which thank God are available by the thousands today, are very
helpful. One can find whatever one needs and desires in these books. They are
authentic spiritual nourishment and a sure guide on the spiritual path.
However, in order to be of benefit to us, they have to be read with humility
and prayer. Patristic texts reveal the inner spiritual condition of the soul,
much as axial tomography reveals the inner structures of the body. Each
sentence of the patristic texts contains a multitude of meanings, and each
person can interpret them according to their own spiritual state of being. It
is better to read the ancient text rather than a translation, because the
translator interprets the original verse according to his own spirituality. In
any case, in order to understand the writings of the Fathers one must constrain
oneself, focus and live spiritually, for the spirit of the Fathers is perceived
through and by the spirit only. Especially helpful are the Ascetical
Homilies by Saint Isaac the Syrian, but they must be studied slowly so
that they can be assimilated little by little as spiritual food. The Evergetinos is
truly of great benefit, because it gives us insight into the Whole spirit of
the Holy Fathers, it is helpful because it describes the struggles of the
Fathers against each and every one of the passions, and, by learning how they
worked on the spiritual life, the soul is greatly assisted. Also, the Synaxaria, the
Lives of the Saints, are sacred history and very helpful, especially for young
people, but they should not be read as stories.
We do not
need great knowledge to be devout. If we concentrate and meditate on the few
things we know, our heart will be spiritually embroidered. One may be
profoundly affected by a single hymn, while another may feel nothing, even
though he may know all the hymns by heart, as he has not entered into the
spiritual reality. So, read the Fathers, even one or two lines a day. They are
very strengthening vitamins for the soul.
An excerpt from “Spiritual Awakening”
C.S.
ReplyDeleteAlong these lines, what what were some of the books you found to be most influential in your conversion to Eastern Orthodox?
Along these lines... well, not many, to be honest. Before my conversion it was "Mountain of Silence" - a memoir-esque mishmash of travelogue and Orthodox spirituality (and it also contains several great stories about Elder Paisios) - as well as The Way of the Ascetics and Christ the Eternal Tao (still my favorite Orthodox book).
ReplyDeleteAfter my conversion, I read a great deal more. Wounded by Love, by Elder Porphyrios may be my favorite post-conversion book, as well as The Arena, and Path to Salvation by Saint Theophan the Recluse.
If you are interested in recommendations because you are considering conversion, please email me, and I will be glad to send you a more exhaustive list.
With love in Christ,
C.S.